hate to miss u…

why do i have to miss u?
Why do i have to suffer from missing feeling?
I really hate myself whenever i miss you like crazy, almost every night before i can close my eyes. Yeah, i never want to forget you, but i would never wish to fall in to such crazy missing feel like this. Please understand me, i’m really tiered, i really don’t want to miss anyone anymore please go away from my head. I world prefer a shift + delete function, just like a function in microsoft windows, in my head to permantly remove such missing feeling away out of my broken heart, my illness head. I REALLY HATE MYSELF TO MISS YOU… Just few words from bong Ya kamab mab, my extra name that you gave me and used to call me in a very lovely way, where i love to hear the most, n which i know i would never ever hear it anymore. I miss you… Somnop jet bong.